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Sed and cancelled out for a moment as if we had never left it is that nchanging space that allows Shadows the Sizes of Cities, A Novel us to travel in time The way Mar as juggles his themes and pulls all the vast array of ideas together in the closing scene makes for one of the most impressive conclusions to any novel I have ever read It is nothing short of genius Through this connection of ideas Mar as remindss that this is a story being told to Pogos Double Sundae us a story from one perspective turning the reality around him into a cast of characters to move about a narrative to express the way he perceived it which opensp an incredible examination on language Not only is all of humanity connected but words as well Each word drags with it an assortment of connotations which he examines in detail each change from the sted to the tu and vice versa is dissected to extract a wealth of hidden meaning and every word is at once one thing and its contrary an idea that Derrida would be pleased to see put to good se It is our language that allows Peter Pan Wendy us to interact with one another beyond the purely physical and while both leaves forever altered by any interaction with another it is only through language that we are able to examine and express the ineffable impact of our collisions with the bodies and consciousness of others What a strange contact that intimate contact is what strong non existent links it instantly forges even though afterwards they fade and The Plague Maiden (Wesley Peterson, unravel and are forgottenbut not immediately after establishing those links for the first time then they feel as if they were burned into you when everything is fresh and your eyes still wear the face of the other person The physical contact bondss to others and not only to those we immediately make contact with but all those with whom we are now linked to by the process of our minds acknowledging that the other has contact with people beyond The Hanging Tree (Peter Grant, us and now we are linked to them through this chain of interaction The narrator often tries to recall an old Anglo Saxon term that failed to be adopted into the languages that stemmed from it a term describing the bond between those who have shared a bed with the same person The narrator feels annbearable burden to acknowledge all the men he may be related to Anglo Saxon style and posits that the word has not survived because it isn t easy to accept the act that it describes and it s therefor better not to name it a connection based on rivalry and Health Insurance and Managed Care unease and jealousy and drops of blood It is language that tiess together the most language binds Forward us with those arounds and with those throughout all of human history Having repeatedly drawn our attention to language Mar as Scraps of Life uses the entirety of his story to examine the act of storytelling I am the one who counts he tellss the one telling the story and the one who decides who will speak therein lies the pathetic superiority of the living our temporary motive for triumph It is not the victors who write history but merely those who survive the events People are interpreted by other people and it is through language that we interpret others and our surrounding events and language is Peter Pan -- BookDna Famous Childrens Literature ultimately a fallible device Every word wetter drags its weight in connotations and the debris of both the teller and the listeners perceptions further taint each word Mar as gives Getting Out (Getting Out us not only annreliable narrator but a narrator openly admitting to his Getting Closer (Getting Out unreliability while insistingpon it at the same time No one does anything convinced of its injustice he remarks as well as that everything depends on the end result doesn t it and that includes everything even if it s only an instant in time one particular action varies depending on the effect it has This presents a reality in which truth and morality is subjective to an individual and the reader must be ever conscious to see through the narrative as it is delivered by a mind Valencia and Valentine utterly convinced of the validity of each action What may come across as endearing could be viewed as creepy from an outside perspective which is something we must all take to heart remembering to think outside ourselves in our everyday interactions If we do act in acknowledgement of the injustice of our actions our soul bucklesnder the weight and visions of ghosts may haunt The Strangest Things in the World us in our sleep We become enshrouded in shadows burdened by our desire to become whole again through the act of storytelling The most impressive idea is that once a story has left the lips of the teller it becomes the property of all those that have heard it While it may seem improbably that each speaker in the novel should be so well euipped to deliver such moving and poetic monologues as they do it must be remembered that it is the narrator s story and there words are now his property tose and shape as he sees fit to elaborate and polish It is in his right to forget what really happened and replace it with fiction He is by trade a ghostwriter and wouldn t it be only natural to ghostwrite the words of those he interacts with However what is most important is that this is a story being delivered My Wings untos the reader to take hold in our hearts and minds finding its own sense of immortality by being passed from one to another When we seek meaning entertainment joy and solace in the words of a story it isn t the events that matter and why should it matter if they are fact or fiction because it is how the story reverberates within Enathu Suya Saritham us that matters most It is how we internalize and reshape it to fit our ourselves so we can pass it on again Our lives are often a continuous betrayal and denial of what came before we twist and distort everything as time passes and yet we are still aware however much we deceive ourselves that we are the keepers of secrets and mysteries however trivial This novel simply blew me away It came highly recommended from an extremely trustworthy source and managed to not only reach but to jump leaps and bounds over my expectations It is one of my favorite novels now Mar as is a master of language meandering at every possible chance to cast a louacious flashlight into each crevasse of thought along the way yet keeping an incredible intensity as he builds this psychological masterpiece The text is dense and macabre yet darkly humorous andplifting at the same time His ability to tie such a wide range of ideas together is staggering from large themes and motifs to clever repeated actions such as shoelaces coming Edificios mágicos untied to emphasize the idea of a life comingnraveled despite all attempts to hold it together I confess I had an extremely difficult time putting together this review there is too much to discuss and the only method of tying it all together into a feasible and comprehensive manner is to just read the novel Or perhaps this book took such a hold on my heart that I feel any attempt to turn it over would spoil and tarnish it with my fingerprints This novel is truly amazing and a truly amazing portrait of our struggle to find handholds in eternity while being sucked into oblivion55 When things come to an end they have a number and the world then depends on its storytellers but only for a short time and not entirely they never fully emerge from the shadows other people are never ite done and there is always someone for whom the mystery continues This book no longer existsI told this to the owner of the bookstore it was of course empty You are the second person to complain The owner of the bookstore it was of course empty You are the second person to complain The was much younger than you More my age You have not read the book I asked as he sat at the edge of a table mostly emptied He shook his head Then that would explain it I would like my money returned Can t do But I no longer have a book that I bought here Explain yourselfOK It begins with a dead woman in the narrator s arms He will remember her name but never see her face again I m hooked The three hundred and eleven pages solid in my hands It read fastBut you were disappointedNo you re not nderstanding He was a great storyteller craftsman He planted images situations thoughts throughout tightening the narrative creating nuestioned believability There was a voice It was a voice of intense inner reflection but never interrupted the flow The suspense kept me reading through two nightsYou want your money back because you didn t sleep I have boring books for youNo The plot was intricate perfectly balanced pitched At times the voice even evolved into hard boiled crime noir in breaks from this fascinating inner life of self reflections I bought a suspense novel It was what I needed But set in this noir form was the highest philosophical thinking on the nature of reality on identityToo difficultNot at all He mixed speculation with dramatization of everyday life It isn t as though this crime story of everyday detail is greatness likeVirgilorI sold it to you as greatnessNo yes you did You said it was what set him apart That within this non elevated non classical literature form he spoke both to modern times and the niversal You said that it wasn t some masterful trick of craft And He folded his armsOK There was greatness The story evolved from its complex characters heartless surprisingly caring at times fascinating But he showed how our identities are cobbled together by distorting and selecting memories delusions If we can get others to mirror back this image of Viking Slave (The Beast Kings Slave, us we then can see ourselves how we need to see ourselves We select those who will provide this favor but they too are cobbled together and wanting to create themselves as a certain presentation According to him this is true of all the broadcasted world What we see on the news read in the papers is prepared rehearsed then proffered in distillations according to same favored planHe rose then sat down again I said thisI read it In the bookEverything is storiesHe shows that the teller of the story has the power and will tell it any way they want Then it will be the listener s to hold and make their own to tell to themselves and others The same story can never be told the same twice not even by the same person Our consciousness will be filled by the stories we tell ourselves and those tolds by othersSo in the end it wasn t suspenseful enough and you want your money back Like the last guy It s not going to happenI haven t eaten for for three daysI have no food here Didn t you see the signI can t eat I haven t finished reading the book yet I m just coming to the endI sure hope soNo I mean the end of the book I have to find out what happensSo why didn t you bring the damn book and finish reading itBecauseBecause the book I held in my hands was a storya story being tolda story cobbled together out of the consciousness of someone cobbled together Sorry Mr Marias It was a great story about the immutability of truth about writing and reading about life as if we lived on a forgotten planet and knowing this all history is our attempts to adapt and survive Everything Even this conversation After leaving me heart pounded and sweat ridden the book dispersed into nothing Can t you see I am holding nothing At least I think it is me holding it I looked Bonsai from the Wild up He was gone The Strange Workings of TimeThe act of telling a story takesp time it prolongs time and in doing so prolongs lifeIt preserves memories while we are alive but it can also preserve them beyond our death Paradoxically story telling might even help Graveyard Shift us to accept death As Marias protagonist Victor says I can tell the story and I can therefore explain the transition from life to death which is a way of both prolonging that life and accepting that deathExpecting to ReignVictor s story starts with annconsummated infidelity and the GameMaker Studio Book - RPG Design and Coding unexplained but natural death of his new paramour MartaMarias and Victor get the death out of the way in the very first sentence No one ever expects that they might some day find themselves with a dead woman in their arms a woman whose face they will never see again but whose name they will rememberA life has to be extinguished so that the story may commence Man Ray Natasha 1930Committed to MemoryProust and Joyce have likewise been concerned with the nature of memory and its ability to preserve both time and place in minute detailHowever so than them I feel Marias is also interested in what happens to the memories of someone after they dieJust as Marta dies in Victor s arms he wants to find out what really happened that night and whyHe tries to keep her memory alive by investigating her deathSo he starts to tell a story a metaphysical detective story He wants to flesh out his few memories of Marta detail by detail clue by clue and we watch him fascinated as he pieces it all togetherTowards Our Own DissolutionMarias offerss a mental snapshot of Marta at the point of deathWe hear her plead Don t leave meHold me hold me please hold me as she lies foetus like half naked and vulnerable on the bed Then she exclaims Oh God the child thinking of someone else her two year old son at the very endSoon Victor discovers that Marta s husband is on his trail and the progress of the novel concerns how their two stories come together in a slow build denouementThe novel flows towards this end in the same almost stream of consciousness manner that the narrative of Virginia Woolf s Mrs Dalloway moves inexorably to its conclusionAs time goes by we move The Diary of Jack the Ripper unwittingly closer to some sort ofnderstanding some knowledge completion closure just as in life we move towards our own death In Marias words We slowly travel towards our own dissolution our own end the end of our memories and storiesHow Little Trace RemainsTime itself has no interest in memories Memories are passengers a burden to it They re not the main game Life is a seuence of actions and thoughts Once each of them happens or occurs they are in time s eyes spent gone How little trace remains of anythingJust as we have to make an effort to keep love alive we have to make an effort to keep memories aliveThe Passage of TimeTime just wants to move forward openly in the light its own source of light sometimes visible sometimes invisibleWhat has occurred in the past is of no conseuence to time its goal is the future which it gets to via the presentTime has neither a goal nor a purpose nor even a direction other than the movement forward ahead which is really no than a measure of the elapse of time the passage of timeSo perhaps time is nothing really Time is nothing in reality It has no value it is worthless All time is selessDarkness and LightMarias suggests that there are two sides to time The light and the darkThe light is time itself The darkness the reverse side of time the absence of light is what we humans bring to it what we make of it "the shadows that are created as time shines on and around sIt takes Real Service us to imposetility on time to "shadows that are created as time shines on and around Crown Mitre usIt takess to impose tility on time to "it seful and one of the ways we do so is memoryMemories are Made of ThisMemory is "useful and one of the ways we do so is memoryMemories are Made of ThisMemory is conscious act We memorise things in order to preserve them I will try to remember on the reverse side of time along which you are already travellingLiterature is a record of other people s memories both fictitious and realWe read so that we can experience and preserve these memories perhaps so that we can enjoy them vicariously so that we can experiment and explore and learn without scope for personal error or embarrassmentLikewise a photo captures a person s soul at a particular time which soon recedes into the past but the photo remainsWhat we remember what we memorise is the things we think and do And what we think and do revolves around our desiresMan Ray Femme Endormie or Sleeping Woman 1932 Seeking and WantingMarias explores how we seek and want in our lives We pursue pleasure We eschew pain We chase others and occasionally catch them We present ourselves as the answer to their desires Tell me what would be best for youIt s implicit in this command or plea or reuest that we might be able to provide what is best for the otherPerhaps we do so in order to experience a moment or of JAPAN 1/1M3. unreality of fantasy of enchantmentWe put enormous energy into our desires our seeking and our wanting They exhausts they haunt Secangkir Kopi Panas di Pilot Cafe us they makes weary We spend our lives oscillating between weariness and desireA Ridiculous DisasterFreuently we become the victim of our own desires and perhaps the desires of othersMarias doesn t shy away from the absurd in his description of the life and death experiences of his characters Marta s death wasn t just horrible it was ridiculousThere is something farcical about the way Marias tells aspects of his story Victor s meeting with the King the indecorous scoundrel nature of his friend and double Ruiberriz de Torres their hilarious visit to the racecourse Initially for me the sense of farce The Trial of Lizzie Borden undermined the gravity of Marias novel and isltimately why I have given it four stars rather than five Perhaps I was taking him too seriously or only seriously Perhaps my essentially Anglo perspective was getting in the way of this literary version of Pedro AlmodavarFrom the Ridiculous to the SublimeUltimately however I think Marias story had to incorporate these farcical moments because life and love do We do things that embarrass ourselves We do things of which we are ashamed We do things that horrify ourselves and othersWe endeavo. D Victor retreat to the bedroom Undressing she suddenly feels ill; and in his arms inexplicably she diesWhat should Victor do Remove the compromising tape from the phone machine Leave food for the child for breakfast These are just his first steps but he soon takes matters further; SpecOps: Expeditionary Force, Book 2 unable to bear the shadows. Marvellous Loved the serpentine sentences with their astonishing thought within thought near metaphysical poetic lilt preference for the cosy comma over the sloppy semicolon theirse of not oft seen things like reported speech and thought within parentheses or another character s dialogue repeated phrases dark back of time about six times and callback to earlier passages and Myself Among Others uotations to elevate the plot matter to something loftier than the obvious Mike is right Mar as aside from being Spain s premier James Belushi impersonator is an origamist But where is that elusive fifth star ye cry Despite my love for these sentences not every one was lusciously lickingly lovely plenty felt like stylistic run ons notnlike Hubert Selby deploying his punctuationless style merely as a formality in later bo This novel blew me away and I m still working to fit my pieces together I got lost into Mar as winding train of thoughts and I m still trying to find my way back to reality What was it that I liked so much about this novel Well everything the plot the subtle humor the flow of words the ideas the profound pondering I found and lost myself at the same time and I really can t explain this if you haven t done it yet you should read the novel and see for yourselfMar as talks about death about memory about guilt about the power of names He also talks about the life of a story prone to be transformed with every additional mouth that will pass it on The plot of Tomorrow in the Battle Think on Me is merely an excuse for the writer to travel down the meditative path to reach depths of thought that left me wondering and made me feel exalted So many truths that I haven t thought of before so many approaches that now seem obvious He made me look at my possessions and ask myself do these objects hold any interest to other people or is it just me who justifies their existence and tility And do I really need all these things around meThere s death in this novel nexpected and ludicrous as in dying in your socks or at the barber s still wearing a voluminous smock or in a whorehouse or at the dentist s or dying in the middle of shaving with one cheek still covered in foam half shaven for all eternity How to Be an Even Better Listener unless someone notices and finishes the job off out of aesthetic pity Through Mar as it suddenly becomes easier to look in the face of the life s worst enemy to laugh at it and even embrace its possibility a littleAfter we are dead our memory ceases to exist along with the ephemeral life of our personal things What was important tos may probably lose its meaning to other people everything that had meaning and history loses it in a single moment and my belongings lie there inert suddenly incapable of revealing their past and their origins Our smell might persist for a while if windows are not opened and clothes are not washed But our bodies will travel towards dissolution like all things that are never repeated or happen so often that tend to fall into non existence Just as the The Robot Lovers unwanted belongings our bodies will suddenly becomeseless prone to be discarded like all the scraps that will rot Our faces will become foggy but our names will forever be remembered by those who once knew Ancient Magick Conjuration of Power us Raw plain reality that we d better be able to confront It isn t just the minuscule history of objects that will disappear in that single moment it s also everything I know and have learned all my memories and everything I ve ever seen my memories which like so many of my belongings are only ofse to me and become Choosing the Right Pond useless if I die what disappears is not only who I am but who I have been not only me poor Marta but my whole memory a ragged discontinuous never completed ever changing scrap of fabric But how does memory work Even the King also known as One and Only Solo Solitaire Lone Ranger Only the Lonely and Only You is worried that he won t go down in history with some identifiable traits of character He is ready to invent such traits so that people could remember him easily But he is not aware that famous figures benefit from the power of myth that comes with the passage of centuries and sometimes from their vile feats While some are forgotten and lost in the mists of time others are perpetuated and become legends But the vast majority of people is sentenced to a life of ghosts lurking in the shadows neverite stepping into light Looking at their last achievement and denying their past people believe they pass through important transformation but are they really "CHANGED INTO A NEW COMPLETELY DIFFERENT "into a new completely different if this was my first novel by Javier Mar as his works are etched in my mind so I could notice that throughout the narration he Real Love used phrases that later were to become titles of other novels What a disgrace it is to me to remember your name though I may not know your face tomorrow who is going to hurls over on to the reverse side of time on to its dark back Tomorrow in the battle think on me think on me when I was mortal There are so many other things here that are worth discussing but I ve already written too much The novel s only fault may be that the characters voices are not ite distinct the narrator and the cheated husband talk in the same way and it s a bit hard to believe in such a chance encounter between two meditative people But I chose not spoil the joy of devouring Mar as words and imagined instead that everything was filtered through the narrator s voice thus becoming his story But wait this must be it and it makes sense it is his story now told in his own words in his own style Everything is travelling towards its own dissolution and is lost and few things leave any trace especially if they are never repeated if they happen only once and never recur the same happens with those things that install themselves too comfortably and recur day after day again and again they leave no trace either The writing of Javier Marias is a different altogether Repetition and recurrence are common aspects his books and yet they always leave an everlasting trace on readers mind He handles melancholy with a tender touch of his words and let the sadness tranuilly seep through our being but at the same time he keeps a strand of hope lurking around so that we can comfortably sail through the waves of dense narration he sually resorts to without losing sight of the horizon and gets the precious reward waiting for s on the other side of the shore The vividness of his storytelling is a treasure to behold I CAN STILL SEE THAT HALF NAKED still see that half naked lying on her bed and slowly without making any noise without any apparent struggle saying her goodbye to this world Goodbye laughter and goodbye scorn I will never see you again nor will you see me And goodbye ardour goodbye memoriesShe is peacefully resting now or maybe she is a little agitated and trying to come to terms with her new surroundings because the world she has left behind inhabits her dearest ones without whom she hardly imagined her life Her father her sister her husband and her 2 years old child But there is someone else Someone who belongs to her immediate past someone who is a no one for her family someone who could have become someone special for her had she lived a little longer someone who knows the circumstances of her death and that knowledge now bears heavy on his soul That someone is our narrator Victor and he knows his art very well Tomorrow in the battle think on me and fall thy edgeless sword Tomorrow in the battle think on me when I was mortal and let fall thy pointless lance Let me sit heavy on thy soul tomorrow let me be lead within thy bosom and at a bloody battle end thy days Tomorrow in the battle think on me despair and die Victor contemplates these lines from Shakespeare s Richard III and relates it to his situation A ridiculous situation An nfortunate situation A situation he didn t choose for himself but now he can t escape it Then again who choose to become a sole witness to a death Who choose to make memories out of the last breath exhaled from someone s red lips Who choose to weave a story by pulling out threads out of the last moments someone spent in the arms of an almost stranger Probably no one but life comes with its own bundle of surprises and dilemmas Mar as takes Grey (Fifty Shades, up these elements of life and indulge into a philosophical enuiry that treads a long path throughnending sentences freuent digressions and an elouent prose He leaves a reader numb by creating something magnificent with a tiny shred of a long forgotten past and illuminates the significance of a supposed inconseuential present He makes Triumph (TriAlpha Chronicles, us see and makess admit that sometimes behind a normal facade there hides both an angelic and a demonic form of our soul we never deem to exist We never think ourselves capable of inflicting ruthless pain on someone or view ourselves as some sort of savior and before we know it we becomes an inexplicable reason for somebody s life and death One sees one s past life as if it were a plot or a mere piece of circumstantial evidence and then one falsifies and distorts itMore than distortions one can find a great deal of truth in the musings of Javier s narrators They seem to possess a rare We Love You, Charlie Freeman understanding of life whereby they manage to touchpon nearly everything which tells The Messy Accident (An ABDL Story) us what it s like to be a human being We all have our share of regrets good and bad memories estranged relations incidental connections and on our journey towards nothingness we tend to view all these things in different light at different stages of our existence but seldom we find a voice which recounts them fors in an astounding way as if someone secretly entered our lives and It Looks Like This unveiled the longingsestions and ruminations of our silly hearts Javier Mar as is one such voice Do listen to him He s a friend you always wanted to have He s funny too how that death gladdens me saddens me pleases me5Five Stars Following are my 3 Mar as reads in order of preference1 A Heart So White2 Tomorrow In The Battle Think On Me3 The Infatuations A nod to David Foster Wallace Tomorrow in the battle think on me And fall thy edgeless sword Despair and die William Shakespeare Richard IIIThe main character becomes an involuntary witness of death in the very nusual circumstances And the image of death starts haunting him Death and fear And the fear of deathAnd at the cemetery in the epitaph on a tombstone he meets the impersonation of death None that speak of me know me and when they do speak they slander me those who know me keep silent and in their silence do not defend me thus all speak ill of me ntil they meet me but when they meet me they find rest and they bring me salvation for I never rest One dies and one carries mysteries of one s life away forever But the secrets that surrounded one s life still remain And others might try to find them One can endeavour to choose one s destiny but one can t choose one s doom And the vicissitudes of life and death are all around running across the road and keeping as far from the kerb as possible seeking shelter Plants Used by the Indians of Mendocino County, California (1902) under eaves and in shop doorways and in the entrance to the metro as had their forebears wearing hats and longer skirts when they ran to find shelter from the bombing during the long siege clutching their hats and with skirts flying according to photos and documentaries I ve seen about the Civil War some of those who ran to avoid being killed are still alive whilst others born later are deadThe living inter the dead and mourn their death but life in the world of the living continues despite anything It isnbearable that people we know should suddenly be relegated to the past Death is inevitable From the very first page of Javier Mar as flawlessly executed novel Tomorrow In the Battle Think On Me death becomes a constant companion to the reader always whispering in our ear the truths of our impermanence and the endless variety of possible deaths that await Love Show us horrible deaths ridiculous deaths death that may make a stranger laugh when they read it in the paper Any dead life lasts longer than an inconstant lived life and our time spent beneath the sky leaves such a tiny trace once we are transferred to our time beneath the soil However every single moment of our living actions are intertwined with those arounds and bear down in their memory Through a narrator whose tightly knit yet meandering ruminations serve as an exuisite investigation into the implications of storytelling and language Mar as examines the permanent marks the departed leave on our consciences the voids their absence forms in our lives and our endless interconnectivity as we are flung forward towards oblivion How little remains of each individual in time Origin (Robert Langdon, useless as slippery snow how little trace remains of anything This chilling sentiment is often pondered by the narrator throughout this incredible novel After a potential fling with a married woman is suddenly extinguished by her sudden death our narrator must bear the burden of her memory her name and that of her young child whom he sets out a plate of food for before slipping away into the night is forever etched into his conscience What a disgrace it is for me to remember your name though I may not know your face tomorrow The lives of those lost slowly slip into the reverse side of time it s dark back their features slowly fade in our memory their belongings become redundant andseless their personal charm washed away with the fleeting spirit and slowly they dissolve from the world as we look to those alive and think on the dead less and less as time assuages the pain of their loss While Mar as often leaves the reader flailing in a vacuum facing their inevitable oblivion there is a sense of hope There is hope in the fleeting ways we leave our living on the lives of those we encounter cradled in their memories to cling to the world through them In this way Mar as presents a Madrid characterized by its ghosts The living slip through the streets with carrying the ghosts of others in their minds and hearts streets are named for famous fallen heroes parks named for bombing mishaps during the war the whole city is entrenched in its history However it is not only the dead who are faced with their dissolution and all throughout the novel we are presented with characters slowing dissolving into oblivion despite the beating of their hearts The narrator is a political ghostwriter who writes for another ghostwriter a mere ghost of a ghost a political leader that enlists his aid fears being forgotten and not leaving a mark on the memory of his people and characters shroud themselves in mystery and shadows to avoid connection to a death While it is The Riddle of the Yellow Canary unbearable to know another has died it is euallynbearable to dissolving while still alive Memory is the only way they can cling to the world as well such as a sullen speech by the political figure Solitaire aka Only the Lonely aka Only You etc where he expresses fears that the reviled the person the memorable they are Those who hold secrets inside feel so burdened by them that they must eventually bring them out into the light not because of a growing shame eating away at the soul but because they have merely been overcome or motivated by weariness and a desire to be whole It is the bonds we form with others that builds a sense of permanence by sharing memories or sharing our stories we pass them on so that we can forge a space in the hearts of others that will continue after our own departure Sometimes our ghosts can be a heavy burden such as the film seen by the narrator a film of Richard III in which an old King is visited by the ghosts of those who lost their lives in his name mocking him cursing him tomorrow in the battle think on me and fall thy edgeless sword Despair and die The world is but a history of ghosts seeking remembrance in the hearts of the living sometimes out of love sometimes out of malice Yet how much of another can be imposed Inside the Asylum upons since much is of no interest to the person receiving it who is busy forging his or her own memories The real irony however is that even our sense of permanence the fragments that do find their way into the minds of others is just another form of fleeting impermanence Those who hold Plastic us in our hearts will eventually rot away as well taking our ghost to the grave with them Everything is continually travelling on everything is connected some things drag other things along with them all oblivious to each other everything is travelling slowly towards its own dissolution the moment it occurs and even while it is occurring The way our lives are connected is illuminated brilliantly through Mar as The way others are etched into our hearts like names on a tombstone only cracks the surface Mar asses language in a niue and compelling way to tie everything together Using repetition to revisit many of the narrator s luscious meditations when they apply to a new situation it is as if he doubles back to stich a new fold together in the narrative carefully sewing all the events and ideas together to form one large potent message on life and death iWhen we go back to a very familiar place the intervening time becomes compressed or is even era. No one ever suspects begins Tomorrow in the Battle Think On Me that they might one day find themselves with a dead woman in their arms Marta has just met Victor when she invites him to dinner at her Madrid apartment while her husband is away on business When her two year old son finally falls asleep Marta an. ,
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Ur to hide our flaws so that we can protect our self esteem and our reputation But life doesn t just include it embraces the horrible and the ridiculous and the shameful We have to acknowledge it we have to accept it we have to accommodate itUltimately we can t edit the ridiculous and the shameful out of our life our story or our life story We know they exist as do others Others watch others know they exist others remember The collective knowledge can t be extinguished So much else goes on behind our backs our capacity for knowledge is so limitedThe Collective Consciousness of the PastMemories and knowledge aren t just individual We alone can t know everythingCollectively there is a reservoir of knowledge about all of s lodged in our minds and memories We have to put our heads together and our minds and our memoriesAs a result the loss of one individual on death does not necessarily detract from the collective bank of knowledgeStill we only live on after death in the minds of others in their memories One day then when our last friend or relative dies there will be no one left to remember Raquel, the Jewess of Toledo us there will be no memory ofs and we will finally be dead to timeThis has been the way of all flesh for all of time for eternity We are part of a continuum not of time but of memories In this way the recent present seems like the remote pastBut the past must one day come to an endThe Special Ridiculousness of the Male of the SpeciesMarias freuently describes incidents as ridiculous or a disaster or a ridiculous disasterThere is something peculiarly male in how he goes about thisIn Marta s case it was her death that was ridiculous In Victor s case it was his desire the way he and we males go about seeking and wantingThere is something vaguely grubby and vulgar in his lascivious gaze his analysis of Marta s too small bra and panties his The Shadow at the Bottom of the World unsatiated horniness his subseuent lust for Marta s younger sister Luisa now the only surviving one of three sisters I had still not seen that new body that was sure to please meVictor proclaims I never sought it I never wanted it but we don t believe him It s in his nature It s in oursMarias sums itp beautifully only a man is capable of describing as disastrous a night that has not come Design for Six Sigma up to expectations a night when he had expected to have a fuck but hadn tNote how a male converts desire into an expectation an anticipation a prediction of what time has in store for him and so recalls the setup of the novel No one ever expects that they might some day find themselves with a dead woman in their armsBack then it seemed like a tragedy in fact at heart it is but Marias skill is to makes realise that at least as far as Victor is concerned there is an element of farce in this tale of folly and failure as wellA Time for ShameIf memory is intrinsically linked to desire then it must embody expectation just as much as actuality A memory is not necessarily true nor does it necessarily reflect well on Otis Oldfield us Memory true memory captures the past our folly and failure warts and all We are ashamed of far too many things of our appearance and of past beliefs of our ingenuousness and ignorance of the submission or pride we once displayed of our transigence and intransigence of all the many things we proposed or said without conviction of having fallen in love with whoever it was we fell in love with and of having been a friend of whoever it was we were friends with our lives are often a continuous betrayal and denial of what came before we twist and distort everything as time passes and yet we are the keepers of secrets and mysteries however trivialAn End to Shame and RidiculeOnly death brings relief to the shame and ridicule we have broughtpon ourselves Goodbye laughter goodbye scorn However death also takes everything that was good about a life the effort the achievements the rewards the friends the family the love so Marias adds And goodbye ardour goodbye memories Death is inevitable and one day the present must come to an endTomorrow in the Battle Think on MeThe title of the novel comes from Shakespeare s Richard III Tomorrow in the battle think on me and fall thy edgeless sword despair and die It is reiterated many times throughout the text although there is no clear explanation of its significanceIn the play the lines are spoken to Richard by the ghosts of his previous victims who forsee his fate death in battleThey contrast with the message to Richmond Thou offspring of the house of LancasterThe wrong d heirs of York do pray for theeGood angels guard thy battle Live and flourishPerhaps there is a suggestion that Evil will be divinely punished and Good will be rewardedHowever elsewhere in the novel Marias estions this inferenceHe seems to suggest that we are the sum of our desires and expectations which are founded in our memories No one ever ceases to be immersed in life as long as they have a consciousness and a few memories to ponder than that it is a person s memories that make every living being dangerous and full "OF DESIRES AND EXPECTATIONSCLEARLY HE THINKS "desires and expectationsClearly he thinks our desires and expectations can be misguided but is it wrong to be misguided is it wrong to be dangerousIs it an inevitable conseuence of Free Will even if we purport to believe in Fate or Determinism The living also believe that what has never happened can still happen they believe in the most dramatic and most nlikely reversals of fortune the sort of thing that happens in history and in stories they believe that a traitor or beggar or murderer can become king and the head of the emperor fall beneath the blade that a great beauty can love a monster or that the man who killed her beloved and brought about her ruin can succeed in seducing her they believe that lost battles can be won that the dead never really leave but watch over Wciv, Volume 1 us or appear tos as ghosts who can influence events that the youngest of three sisters could one day be the eldestThere is a skepticism about Fate and Divinity here Yet it has to be weighed against the fact that in the novel Marta s youngest sister does end Even Monsters Need Haircuts up being the oldest of the threePerhaps then Marias message is that our desires and expectations might be misguided they might be subjective but at least they are ours and they might just happenAs long as we are alive as long as we hold our swords aloft as long as there is ardour as long as there is effort there is hope Memories are made of this And stories Don t leave meHold me hold me please hold meSOUNDTRACKNick Cave Into My ArmsI believe in loveAnd I know that you do tooAnd I believe in some kind of pathThat we can walk down me and youSo keep your candles burningMake her journey bright and pureThat she will keep returningAlways and everInto my arms oh LordInto my arms oh LordInto my arms oh LordInto my arms Man Ray Natasha 1929Original Review April 03 2013 I don t propose to talk about the details of the plot of Javier Marias thought provoking piece of writing but instead I will simply describe my experience of reading this Richard the III style monologue because that is what this book is a long speech by the narrator Victor in a calmnvarying tone a speech that states Unti Love Street Book uite clearly that he is aware that his story is sometimes bizarre and frightening and that we may find itnbelievable in fact he says I am the person doing the telling and people can either choose to listen to me or not so he is not setting himself Fit and Sexy For Life: The Hormone-Free Plan for Staying Slim, Strong, and Fabulous in Your Forties, Fifties, and Beyond up as someone reliable irreproachableite the contrary in fact and I was freuently repulsed by Victor s actions but nevertheless little by little I began to warm to Victor I began to trust him in spite of the ever mounting catalogue of odd behaviours including his daydreams of strangling women with his long strong fingers his obsession with the links that exist between men who have slept with the same women and his propensity for spying on women in the street and yes this miracle of trust that I experienced is entirely due to Victor s superb ability to manipulate words to seduce the reader with his intriguing reflections on memory and death and so I scarcely blinked as he whom they should have despised gradually insinuated himself softly and silently into the very heart of the family of the woman who died in his presence in the early pages Victor the victorThere is just one little plot niggle I can t resist mentioning would anyone leave a message on the answering machine of hisher lover knowing that the lover s partner might also access it In this story not one but three lovers make this mistake He must have thought his luck was in they arranged to meet around her place she had a two year old son who was hopefully now off in the land of dreams just the two of them alone in her bedroom the muted TV is playing an old black and white movie with subtitles after a few glasses of wine to soften the mood he is hopeful one thing will lead to another gearing p for the moment passion takes hold he wants her The last he expected was for her to die suddenly at that takes hold he wants her The last thing expected was for her to die suddenly at that moment A second ago she was in the land of the living but now gone departed in a flash what does he do it s not an everyday occurrence one would be caught in a strange situation like this He barely knows her she has a husband away in London in a panic does he call and what about the boy asleep in the next room could he simply just vanish into the dead of night without a trace leaving all the difficulties to the person who would discovery the body As far as her family is concerned she died alone But there are lose ends Decisions decisions decisionsNo one ever expects that they might someday find themselves with a dead woman in their armsCoetzee and Rushdie are fans so was the late WG Sebald and I myself think Mar as is one of the finest contemporary writers of his time and it comes as no surprise to me he kicks off this intriguing and deep psychodrama of sex guilt and family ties with the preliminaries of sex something he seductively covers well in other novels It is an intellectually stimulating affair set in Madrid with psychological insights into how death firmly grapples with the living Mar as has a habit of characterising long rambling sentences that sometimes drift and divert away from the main story woven together to form cascading pages long paragraphs that I could image driving certain readers nuts This was my forth Mar as and probably the one I say is least accessible to any newbies nless of course you don t mind being thrown into the deep end with his work For all it s frustrations it was just so darn tantalizing to read He thoroughly held my attention even in the places that to a degree pissed me offAfter the initial Sanctum Angels (Shadow Havens unexpected setback of witnessing death the narrator Victor a ghostwriter obsessively tries to find out about his date Marta the deceased and her husband and family before slowly revealing to the woman s sister and father what happened that night But this is not a conventional story there are side plots on aspects of identity concerning Victor a meeting with the King of Spain a flashback to a sexual encounter he had with a prostitute and his estranged wife than two years earlier this does though help to truly get inside Victor s shoes and what he is all about This is a novel for some where not a lot really happens and what does happens at a glacial pace that may put off the casual reader That is because so many small actions and gestures however brief long winded conversations and even internal thought processes are meticulously analyzednder the Microscope There are also some nlikable self centred characters within but hey isn t that the real world Marias does though achieve the sort of tension and suspense that could be classed as Hitchcockesue albeit on a deeper psychological level The tone of the book was the thing that surprised me the most It s not as dark as it sounds at times nsettling yes but on occasions an Almodovar style wry humour bubbles to the surface Many of the scenes are prolonged but you feel with a purpose eventually bringing clarity to his dreamlike puzzle as it draws to a close where Marias shows the dead struggling against their own dissolution and seeking embodiment in the one thing that remains to them if they are to preserve their validity and maintain contact the repetition or infinite reverberation of what they once did or what happened one day Never straightforward but always dazzling with a compelling intelligence this is a novel where the human condition and sexual temptation is masterfully studied Poison (Med Center, unveiling complexities in his characters that is one of his great strengths as a writer Here he excels Anyone looking for a lazy read or simple plot forget it this reuires patience and concentration that if read properly pays off big time I just love his style bravo Javier He won t please everybody but then who does Incredible In freakin credible This is one of those titles you want to recommend to everyone but you know damned well that it isn t going to be everyone s cup of tea one of those novels that foldsp on itself into something origami like a piece of paper manipulated into a work of art something like this even if your own look like this my paper birds have wings that flapWhy do you read Why do you read what you read When you pick Dirty Tricks (The Nancy Drew Files, up a novel for the first time do you think this looks good and wonder how it will end or do you look over the book and consider how the story might be told how the author might attempt to engage you andor might the author have something to say beyond the story itself Are you a reader who wants and expects entertainment or are you a reader whose expectations demand engagement of a sort that you know doesn t appeal to all readers If you re one of the readers who expect than story than a gripping page turner someone who wants to be spoken to and not just entertained you just might like Javier Mar as He s a demanding author his expectations of readers are great His willingness to let a narrator s thoughts wander in seemingly aimless and endless directions and to subjects that may or may not seem to speak to the story itself will slam covers closed for many readers If you find Saramago or Bola o or Henry James or Melville too long too wordy too boring like this review Mar as might be an author best avoided one left to the die hards the critics the snobs and the award committees His paragraphs might go on for pages while his sentences can feel almost as long He expects much of his readers but the payoff is worth the time and effortIn TITBTOM the narrator a perhapsnreliable narrator aren t almost all first person narrators Pedro and Me unreliable recounts the night he spent with a married woman as they have dinner and anticipate making love once her small child finally falls asleep but her physical distress escalates or degenerates culminating in her death while her young son witnesses his partially dressed mother and the narrator in his parents bedroom and the narrator considers what might be happening in other parts of the city and world before returning the child to his bed removing all traces of his having been in the dead woman s apartment considering voices on the woman s answering machine attempting to provide for the child before abandoning the apartment and then later attempting to learn the fate of the child the identities of the callers and if his presence in the apartment has been detected a longwinded sentence notncharacteristic of the text of the novel though much less compelling or artful Check out Chris much better review synopsis here TITBTOM is than a story of an Break Us (Nikki Kill untimely death than a story about how that death affects other characters it s as much about how what we don t know affectss as much as what we do know and how the dead live on the narrator considers the link between himself and the dead motherPerhaps the link was merely that a kind of enchantment or haunting which when you think about it is just another name for the curse of memory for the fact that events and people recur and reappear indefinitely and never entirely go away they may never completely leave or abandon s and after a certain point they live in or inhabit our minds awake and asleep they lodge there for lack of anywhere comfortable struggling against their own dissolution and waiting to find embodiment in the one thing left or infinite resonance of what they once did or of one particular event infinite but increasingly weary and tenuous I had become that connecting thread The story is haunting It builds slowly making connections between characters and memories tightening a circle that reads like the d nouement of a mystery Readers too are haunted by the memories of the narrator so thoroughly are we privy to his every thought The narrator can be compassionate in protecting the secrets of living and the dead he can also be humorous I was drunk but that s no excuse you can be drunk in as many different ways as you can be sober TITBTOM isn t a long book but it s slow going dense it s a novel that is exhaustive without being exhausting This is one for the few those willing to work for their reward I ve never been one for publisher loyalty but I m batting close to 1000 with NDP. And the nknowing Victor plunges into dark waters And Javier Marías Europe's master of secrets of what lies reveal and truth may conceal is on sure ground in this profound Indo Surf and Lingo uirky and marvelous novel Brilliantly imagined and hugely intricate as La Vanguardia noted it is a novel one reads with enormous pleasu.